Sacrifice

So I have some really great news, and I have some really sad news. Which do you want first? (I, by the way, am the person who always wants the bad news first... What does that say about my personality?)

I'll give you the FANTASTIC news first: my awesome, sweet, wonderful husband received a great offer on a new job today. He will be accepting this offer on Monday, and will start this new job no later than Sept. 1. This is really great news because he's been wanting to get back into software, and those of you self-employed folks out there know that there are some days (weeks, months) that it's really hard to make ends meet. Being a family with no consistent, steady income is really challenging at times, so Brian will be bringing home the bacon, and I'll keep running PRstore on a daily basis.

Here comes the BAD news: my business partner received a job offer today and will no longer be working at PRstore. AAAAHHHH!!! Are you kidding me????!!? (This is me ranting and raving...) I can't believe I have to do this by myself!! I CAN'T do this by myself. I can't be here all the time, I can't know everything he knows, I don't know how to enter payments into the accounting system, I don't know all of the website intracacies, I hate walking the dog down to the grassy hill in the middle of the day so she can pee, it's not MY job to take out the trash, I don't want to be the one to sort through all the mail. And, number one reason this is bad news- I never wanted to run a business by myself. I wanted to run a business with Brian (who, by the way, is a total entrepreneur) and it was never the intention for me to do it alone.

Whew. Now that I have that off my chest... I'm really proud of Brian, but I'm also incredibly sad (and this is something unexpected.) Because it's been a huge challenge to learn to work with Brian in the first place, I didn't think I would be upset if we went back to not working together. But I'm used to driving to work together, I'm used to eating lunch together, I'm used to making decisions together, I'm used to having him here all the time! So I'm sad for me, but I'm really happy for Brian.

This is a really cool opportunity for him, and I know he's only doing it to help our family. He's making a huge sacrifice by essentially taking on another full-time job (because let's face it- he will still have a full-time job at PRstore.) He'll have to go into work early in the morning and then head to PRstore for work here at about 4pm everyday. He'll do accounting and stuff here, and then he'll go home with me where he'll have to do all the stuff he does there. What this comes down to is that I'm really proud of him, and very thankful of the sacrifices he's willing to make for our family. I don't know of any other man that would step up to bat the way he's done, and will continue to do.

I'll keep you posted on the status of the job, updates, how it's going, etc. I've learned to ask for help in the last year, and I'm asking for it now- I need your prayers. Please pray for my grace- that I will be a grace-filled wife throughout this whole process, and focus on my husband's needs as opposed to my (crazy) feelings/emotions. Please pray for Brian- that he will have confidence and energy- it will take a lot of energy to do all that he needs to!

More soon...